The season is over

Yep folks...my tri season is officially over:(

With some advice from friends, I have decided to focus on rehabbing my shoulder(and other ailments) and target coming into next season in better shape with the hope of not going through the injury bug....

So tomorrow starts my off-season training. I go see TJ the PT and he will determine my fate. Most likely i will not do much for the next 2 weeks and start taking anti-inflammatories(as much as i hate them).

Like my friend Duane, I too will start posting my weight and food. If i start messing up, i expect you all to jump on me and whip me into shape:)

Goals for next year:

(1) Lose 100 lbs (come in at around 240)
(1a) I want to be able to fit into a wetsuit. Thus part of goal #1...hehehe
(2) Complete a OLY tri in the beg or mid season
(3) Ride a century (100 miles) on bike
(4) Complete a half iron by end of the season ***BIG GOAL****
(5) I want to hike the part of the Appalachian trail. We are not talking day hiking...i want to camp and make my way across VT and NH. This includes going thru the white mountains.


In some ways, I feel like my weight issues has kept me down for too long.

This is gonna seem like a rant but here I go:

Food for me has been a drug. I use it to cover up my feelings. I use food the same way other addicts use booze or drugs. I bury my feelings down but the problem is it is only temporary. Sooner or later you are forced to deal with your feelings. If I bury everything down, it usually comes out as anger or depression. I feel like i have wasted a good 10 years of my life sitting in front of the TV eating tortilla chips, cheese and salsa at 11pm. I work evenings so when i get home at around 11 I usually want something to make me feel good or something to make me tired so i used to choose to stuff food down and then pass out. The next morning is spent being tired and cranky. If I am beat then i dont want to workout or do anything else. And this begins the cycle i was caught in for the last 10 years or so.....

It permeates everything i do.

This is my cross to bear.

I think I am gonna cut this cross up and make a campfire out of the wood cause I dont want/need to carry this with me anymore. NO MORE.


Ok so now you think i am crazy but that is how i feel today......