Working my way back....

Hey Folks,

Things are actually going pretty well. Tina and I are getting separated. I am still working on me, the inside parts.....I have been working my food plan for about 15 days now. My head feels pretty good cause i have been talking with a professional.....very good...I highly recommend it. I have not been training at all lately and really don't expect to for another few weeks. The reconstruction of bob has begun and I need to work on the foundation before I can work on anything else.

We are selling the house. And I am moving into another bedroom. I have been working on clearing out this bedroom(formerly storage). My shoulder is sore from lifting the boxes but we will see how it feels in a week or 2 when I go back swimming. Cleaning up boxes from your past is kind of like the cleaning i am doing with my head.....its sucks to do but ultimately it helps you later.

I have not weighed myself in a few weeks on purpose. My focus is not on the food its on my head. I am following a simple food plan. 3 meals a day nothing in between and 1 day at at time. The meals are balanced: protein, carbs, and fat. That's it. I have a few red-light foods:

nacho chips, taco bell, cheese and crackers, any kind of dip.

So for now i will avoid any of these foods until my head gets a little clearer.


Thanks to all my peeps for all the kind words....i will check in again soon:)

Bob

hi-deeee hi-deeeee hoooooo

Hey everyone. I just wanted to say HI. As you all know i have had some trials and tribulations in my personal life. All I can say is i am working on it. I am calling this PROJECT BOB: THE RECONSTRUCTION. I am in the process of reconstructing me. I am tearing a lot of crap down and throwing it out and I am going to build ME back up. Been some low points this past few weeks but I think mentally i am coming into a clearing. SOOOOOOOOOO

I am going to try to get back to the pool this week. Test out the bum shoulder and see if its ready for some swim-fun.

I also have been itching to get out on the bike again. I did that 50 miler a few weeks ago and i have done zero riding since.

Congrats to TEA on a marathon well done!!!!

On the weight front, I put on a few more pounds but I am back working the program. What else is there to do when everything goes to shit but pick yourself up and start again:)

Peace love and sooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuullllll

Getting back to what is IMPORTANT

ME

That is what is important. If I don't take care of myself, then I will not be able to handle everything else. Sooooo today I am going to focus on taking care of myself.

I went to the gym. Ran for a little while...intervals....not too long but I will build on it. Then abs...

Work has been pretty crazy and so has home so I need to make sure that I am taking care of numero uno:)

5-0 thats right 50, and I dont mean the artist

50 miles

That's right folks....biked 50 miles today. I know some of you its like a walk in the park but i never biked this far.....IT WAS GREAT....

Started out a 6am with some friends(4 to be exact). It was dark and chilly (50) but clear and the wind didn't seem that bad. I have to say that biking into the sunrise is amazing. I don't have too much technical data on this one cause i didn't think i was going to make it last night. But the biking gods shined down and i woke up on time...hehehe

The first 35 was great....felt great and then i hit the wall. The last 10 or 15 was tough. Painful and tough. I was alone cause we all spread out. I was not fast enough for the 2 fast guys and i wasn't slow enough for the 2 in the back. I was pretty happy cause i just kept telling myself that I can do this. Just keep putting the hammers down and i made it.

It took about 4 hours(including some rest stops).

And just one shout out:

GO TEA GO.....

and now its time to watch some FOOTBALLLLLLLLLL

And now for the quickest reversal of all time

So I posted yesterday before we went out for drinks and some dinner. We get to the restaurant and we started talking. I have to say the last few days have been weird. She has been trying to be the loving old Tina but I still feel like part of her still wants to be something else. I am sitting at a bar in this restaurant and the answer comes....its over. Not in the sense of hatred and nastiness that usually comes with breakups but the love one has for another person to let them go and explore the world in the way that they need to. I will not hold her back and she will not hold me back.

thats all....i am a little scared cause i dont know what is next but i will do what i do in triathlon when the going gets rough....just put 1 foot in front of the other......and it will get better....

Just a quick update

Thanks to everyone for the words of encouragement. Tina and I have decided to try and work things out. I am not sure what the future holds but for today we are trying and that is all I have ever asked for. We will seek out a therapist to assist us in sorting through our issues. Today I spoke to a woman who was married for 54 years and she told me about some of the trials and tribulations that she faced. Similar issues and they made it...hopefully we can make it too. If it winds up not working out, I will be able to say that I exhausted all options.

Food has been pretty bad.

I am going to make an appt with an orthopedist to get some advice on my shoulder.....been rehabbing for a while now and still its not feeling better.....

Bobito

TODAY IS A GREAT TRI-DAY

Congrats to DUANE!!!!! He came back to revisit the site of his first tri and kicked some major butt!!! I am looking forward to racing with you in 2009.

I also have been tracking Iron Wil in her 2nd attempt at IM Wisconsin. The big Kahuna and Iron Wil are the 2 tri-geeks that got me to jump in the pool. She is an inspiration. She is also the first person that I emailed and revealed my tri-dreams...and she emailed me back and no she did not laugh but instead she encouraged me. Today, I have been tracking her blog and so far she looks great....sounds like she will hear the famous words:

Iron Wil, YOU ARE NOW AN IRON MAN!!!!

I hope to hear these words one day......

I also want to thank everyone for their support and kind words (especially Tea and Duane) in this really difficult time in my life. It has been tough and not everyone at home understands but its always nice to have some friends that unconditionally love me and keep me afloat.....

Bob